The last couple months I have been teetering on the edge of too much. I do this cyclically. I gradually add more and more and more to my life and my calendar—because, in general, I want to do all the things—then, all of the sudden, I’m drowning in the chaos I’ve created for myself. Does this happen to you too?
I know why I do it. There’s this thrill I get when I feel like I’m getting all the things done. I relish in those focused days where I crank out all the tasks, go to all the places, do all the things. And then the next day, I wonder why I can barely do anything.
I’ve written about this phenomenon in a few different ways, but I haven’t found a consistent way to act on what I know to be true. Most recently I wrote about What is Enough?, and last December I rallied around the idea of scaling back with my Less Hustle, More Naps illustration. And yet…
I’m not sure I’ll ever get the balance quite right—at least not consistently. There are so many exciting and non-exciting things vying for a person’s attention at all times. And right now I’m just… tired. Perhaps you are too? If so, today’s illustrated poem is for you.
Lead Bones
I feel rushed
and trapped
in a slow motion purgatorythe dissonance is palpable
nipping at the edges
of my consciousnessthere’s a sinking feeling
wrapped around my ankles
…Lead bones
stiff tissues
eyes half shut
My insides are buzzing with ideas
and to-do lists
and deep-seeded worry…
What if I can’t do it all?
What if I don’t get to do it all?
What if I can’t handle it all?
What if…
What if…
What if…
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